BALANCE

Ever feel like you need to do everything perfect?

I woke up this morning, I felt like my day would be busier than anyone! I needed to feed the dog, grab some speakers, go to my studio and load up the truck (running sound for an artist) Make sure I find time to eat something healthy, put gas in my car, slightly nervous because my oil light has been flashing on and off. All of these thoughts are surrounding my brain at 8 AM.

Overwhelmed by thinking how tumultuous this day will be, I start to feel anxiety… tomorrow and even the next day are comparable in nature.

One thing that I am learning how to manage a busy schedule. It seems like something, someone somewhere and at some point loses! Things will go wrong, I just know it! I’m not sure if that is me being negative or realistic. Am I making this up out of my head or is this my typical experience? Either way, as of right now it’s just a feeling. Which is temporary 🔑

What’s most important to me is handling the emotional parts of everything, it surely determines the outcome. Balancing emotions! With every negative feeling that comes, counteracting that with a positive. Is it hard, sometimes, is it worth it? Every time!

I can tell I’ve grown a lot by how much more aware of how I respond to situations. Especially when they haven’t even happened yet lol When they happen is another blog post lol 😂

STEP UP

For years I considered stepping out to do my “own thing”, I was basically dragging me feet. Complacent with being the side man has perks sometimes, like not being responsible for when a monitor goes out or when the drummer says he/she can’t make the show. My only obligation was to play my sax! I remember one show where the entire band didn’t show up for the gig, it was no big deal to me being that I would still get paid. The band leader was going nuts! As I was sitting there drinking orange juice, he asked if I could play something to amuse the audience. I played one song and the gig was over! 

Things are a bit different now lol  

Now I’m responsible for managing family life, career, health, spiritual life and a band!

I love what I do and I love the ppl I’m around… They encourage me to be a confident leader. Control is something that I had been fearful of for most of my life. Mostly because I didn’t have any lol Now that I’ve decided to take control over my future, the rewards have outweighed the risks. My aim is to be the best version of myself, one day at a time. #regardless